Sleepy tired

I was sooooooo damn sleepy. Didn't get enough sleep last night watching tv until morning plus e-one crying for his milks 2 - 3 times until the alarm clock is ringing. Now here I am in office at my desk sitting very tired, exhausted, sleepy, looking pale and without energy even for a smile but what can I do? Right now all I am thinking about is my pillow hehe. How nice to have a nap at this precious moment. Pillow o pillow, where are you? 
Doing my best to keep my beautiful eyes wide open....very hard to do until it makes my head spinning huhuhu. Well, I did thinks of gate pass but unfortunately I cant apply for it because I already takes on leave, gate pass and sick leave for previous two weeks. Dont want to take any leave or gate pass during this week, some more this friday is public holiday for 'Good Friday'....wuhuuu!!!! Cant hardly wait for it ~ lalalalalalaalalala ~
Oppss!!! I lay my head on the desk again huhuhu. Have to concentrate to prevent head laying!!!!
Mmmm....whats more to talk about. Owh I know. Lets talk about my mak. Last nite she called and want me to stay with her at home because my bapak was travelling to ...... ( I dont know, somewhere, forgot to ask her) starting today. Shes afraid to stay at Taman Janting plus only her and little dhamirah @ amoi which is only 8months old. Guess I have to stay there tonight and leave my house alone unattended for this week huhuhu. There goes my plan to do the wall decorations.
After 5 today, fetch e-one at Gita and straight home to do all the cleaning and packing clothes and everything that I need. I felt very busy. Busy with the nomad thing, go to this house, that house. Sleeping here, sleeping there. Sometimes my house, sometimes at Taman Janting, sometimes at Stapok. Fuhhhh!! After all the works done, e-one and I heading to Taman Janting and we'll stay there this week.
Ok...I really need to lay my head down for a moment. Its okay because we are the boss today. 
Owh...wake me up at 12noon hehehehe.

my fault????

Is it really my fault? I can't even remember what happened. Damn that accident really took some of my memories away. Wish it was not me but its fate. Shouldn't be with them, shouldn't be involved with them. There's a price we get for everything and damn i just realize it really cost me. Sorry to break your heart, sorry to make you suffer, sorry for everything. Even we try to be together again, we both know its impossible. There's nothing we can do. I just dont' know.

Hope

Hope that this election will bring fortune to everyone. Be it big cities or rural areas. Lets for one time try to change the wind, observe and see the different in massive management. Lets together try it for one semester. Hope the winner will keep their promises, rise the affected areas and most important thing be like our Prophet Muhammad SAW. Lets use all share our land, balak, gold and many more to fight poverty and be like our neighbour. Hopefully....Amin.

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Ketika pusingan dunia berputar, senja datang mengamit diri setiap insan membuatkan diri ini berfikir mengenang mengingat ke mana tuju masa pagi hingga senjaku. Apakah yang telah ku lakukan dan lalui, adakah berbaloi untuk kehidupan hari ini. Ternyata masa itu diisi dengan perkara yang aku sendiri tidak pasti. Rugi kah aku untuk masa itu. Rugi itu satu kepastian...bagi mereka yang mengetahui.....dari golongan mana kah aku ini????

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Orang sik akan tauk apa yang kita sedang hadapi, yang cidak tauk cuma mengata. Tiada siapa juak tauk gelodak di hati selain diri sendiri. Susah senang sendirian juak. Yang pasti, sik akan menyusahkan sapa2 sik akan membebankan sapa2. Harap tuhan melindungi dan memberkati setiap apa yang dilakukan. Diharap tuhan memberi petunjuk ke arah yang betul. Setiap manusia ada topeng masing2, ada pentas masing2, ada agenda masing2. Aku cuma insan biasa...yang tak lekang dari kesilapan. Setiap kesilapan akan ada pengajaran di sebaliknya. Sendirian di dunia yang penuh pura2...Kuatkah aku menahan segala dugaan....Kuatkah aku menahan segala tohmahan....Aku sendiri tidak pasti....

Riders

Best mun jadi rider. Bebas kesana kesini. Stylo gik ya. Haaa....tok lah para riders yg ku maksudkan hehehe.

Perut meragam...sakit perut...

Sekarang tok perut aku sakit. Bila g jamban sik juak mok berak. Bila sakit agik g jamban sik juak geney2. Memulas2 jak. Sakit betul. Aritok dah masuk 4 hari perut ku memulas dan terit sik tauk pahal. Adakah kerana aku byk minum n makan makanan sejuk/berais? Adakah kerana minum air horlick? Aku pun sik tauk n kurang pasti.
Mudahan sakit tok berkurangan dan ilang terus. Huhuhu.