I am really really really damn SLEEPY!!!! but I cant take a nap somehow i dont know why or maybe because of my big tummy. Its really hard even to lay down my head on the table where it push a little hard on my tummy when i do that. It makes me in pain. Ouccchhhh!! On and off try to straight my back to prevent the sickness but still I can fell the pain. The only way to make it better is by laying down on bed huhuhu. Time seems pass too slow when you always watch for the time. Its already 4.55pm now but feels like ages to go to 5.30pm and I really felt sleepy and tired. O God please help me get through this.

Cant help to be at home right now, like ASAP. Right now I'm listening to Beyonce's songs. 

I have to stop at petrol station on my way back home to withdraw cash from atm machine. If could, I dont want to stop at any station but I promised mak yesterday night to pay back her money which I borrowed to bought something. Arrggghhhhhh!!! Its killing me! I AM SO SLEEPY!!!!!!!!!*paused for a while*

Thats all for today. See you guys again tomorrow.

Today I bring some kerepek for sale at office. Alhamdulillah, I managed to sell all. At least I can gain some side income, eventho its not much. Ever heard of "Sikit-sikit lama-lama jadi bukit"? Hopefully those who buy the kerepek likes it and will asking more for it. Insya'allah.

I had lunch at Sal's Cafe, Demak together with Faizah and Mel. We also gossipping about other people (which everyone did) while eating.Then go buy some fresh fruit (guava and pineapple) and some chocolate from Everrise. And now I'm at office feel sleepy and wanted to go home but what can I do. You got to do what you got to do, which is stay in the office huhuhu. Okay lets stop here. I want to take a nap for a while. Byeee....

Hello there, we meet again, here at my blog. Nothing much happen today. Just another boring day at office. Just left me and Anthony, Faizah had Niosh course the whole day. We didn't go out for lunch, just tapau at Sapiah Canteen. Actually about 10.00am this morning I had a feeling to apply for gate pass, but today is Friday so I canceled the plan. Tomorrow is Saturday, non working day so I can just chill at my little office today and do what I pleased.

I dont know whats more to write. Right now I feel not well. My stomach is in pain, maybe because of hot nescafe that I had yesterday. I know I cannot take that drink but what to do. I reallly really thirsty for it and now I deserved the pain. Ouchhh!!!!

Some more got back pain plus sleepy tired. Dear God please help me get through all the pain today. The baby is kicking inside. Talking about baby, some of people I met said its gonna be baby boy, some said baby girl. Dr. Monica said baby boy and some bidan said baby girl. Dont know which one. I dont care. I just hope the baby is healthy and cute.

Aritok aku nang nak makan buah ajak2. Thari tadik beli honeydew kat demak. Bila makan rasa sik cukup. Rasa maok agik. Terasa d geruk kata orang tua. Dah lah kat kantin sekda pa2 d jual. Hancurrrr....

Lamak dah ku sik up-date blog tok. Banyak juak perkara yg di lalui sehingga hari tok. Sampey sik ingat agik dah. Marek teman mak ku medical check-up kat mahkamah lama. Program free kendalian Mosti. Entahlah..org tua suruh teman pergi jak lah. Bapak ku travelling so terpaksa aku juak lah teman. Setengah hari kat sia jak. Kepak juak nyawa ku. Ya pun terpaksa hantar e-one kat Gita, sik tahan aku nak berkepung ngan nya. Aktif betul. Mun aku sik pregnant tek maybe dapat ku melayan tok alu rasa nak pengsan aku.

Marek juak ada orang jual laptop RM400.00 tapi aku sik dapat beli setegal bank tutup ari Ahad. Skali tanya agik aritok tek dah kenak beli orang. Sekhal lah. Mungkin tuhan ada plan yg lebih bagus untuk aku. Lagikpun mok pakey duit juak tok. 

Aritok tek malas ku nak kerja sebenarnya tapi terpaksa juak turun takut juak kenak surat jemputan dari HR. Aku dah makin fed-up kat sitok tapi terpaksa juak mun dak dari cney lah nak dapat duit k hidup. Nak nunggu duit gugok dari langit dalam mimpi jak. Tambahan gik aku rasa kepak driving pergi kerja. Jauh ku rasa. Sik larat gik. Rasa nak tumpang orang jak tapi sekda orang pun yg sama tempat tinggal aku. Yang ada pun dah resign. 

Fizikal aku jak kat tempat kerja tok tapi hati ku kat rumah nun nak ilek2 ajak. Kat opis tok walaupun duduk ajak pun kepak. Sik aktif. Rasa lesu kadang2. Rasa nak cepat2 deliver huhuhuhu.

Sebuah cerita pencetus semangat..article from Kebunku Sayang

Sometimes your biggest weakness can become your biggest strength.

Take, for example, the story of one 10-year-old boy who decided to study judo despite the fact that he had lost his left arm in a devastating car accident.

The boy began lessons with an old Japanese judo master. The boy was doing well, so he couldn't understand why, after three months of training the master had taught him only one move.

"Sensei," the boy finally said, "Shouldn't I be learning more moves?""This is the only move you know, but this is the only move you'll ever need to know," the sensei replied.

Not quite understanding, but believing in his teacher, the boy kept training.

Several months later, the sensei took the boy to his first tournament.Surprising himself, the boy easily won his first two matches. The third match proved to be more difficult, but after some time, his opponent became impatient and charged; the boy deftly used his one move to win the match. Still amazed by his success, the boy was now in the finals.

This time, his opponent was bigger, stronger, and more experienced. For a while, the boy appeared to be over matched. Concerned that the boy might get hurt, the referee called a time-out. He was about to stop the match when the sensei intervened.
"No," the sensei insisted, "Let him continue."

Soon after the match resumed, his opponent made a critical mistake: he dropped his guard. Instantly, the boy used his move to pin him. The boy had won the match and the tournament. He was the champion.

On the way home, the boy and sensei reviewed every move in each and every match. Then the boy summoned the courage to ask what was really on his mind. "Sensei, how did I win the tournament with only one move?"

"You won for two reasons," the sensei answered. "First, you've almost mastered one of the most difficult throws in all of judo. And second, the only known defense for that move is for your opponent to grip your left arm."

The boy's biggest weakness had become his biggest strength. 

Matahari - Know no

Dolok first time dengar lagu tok aku trus suka ngan muzik nya tambah gik ngan lirik nya yang mmg ada related ngan aku. Banyak komen ku baca kebanyakan cidak madah lagu tok menggambarkan sebahagian kisah cinta kisah hidup cidaknya. Sik sangka aku...ku pikir aku sorang jak kedak ya ehehe.

Tapi lirik lagu tok nang lah sedih gilak. Pilu jak asa ati, perasaan rindu terus rasa membuak2. Teringat terus kenangan2 yang dilalui bersama oh....rindu sungguh kenangan itu. Sehingga ingin berjumpa kembali tapi apa kan daya. Bak kata know no walaupun ada yg sayang nya tetap di tangga teratas dalam hatiku. Syahdu sungguh.

Tapi apa kan daya. Kita merancang tuhan menentukan.

I miss him so much. Much love. Hope to see him again eventho its impossible.....

Anyway, hope you enjoy the song. Feel it! 

This morning I woke up very early. After e-one crying for his milk, I cant go back to sleep, just lay down with a blank mind of purpose of life, so I decided to get up and prepared myself, for my first day of the week to the office. Actually I'm afraid of my second pregnancies. I'm afraid when the time is come to deliver, something not good will happen. Dear God, please help me get through it safely. For me, I still had trauma from my first baby. Feel likes it happen yesterday. I was so afraid. Very very afraid. This feeling continuously haunted me. I pray that my baby and I will get through it safely and be healthy as ever. Amin.

Sad....

I was so upset this morning over my personal life. Cant believe it would be like this. It really makes me feel down, dont know what to do some more I have no one to share the problems. Dear God, please help me get through all these. Guide me on whats the best to do. Amin.

Vacancy

Noon time we had lunch at Sal's Kitchen. After that I went to camera shop to take an id photo for my job application form. Faizah and I went to Jabatan Perpaduan to fill the vacancy form for post 'guru tadika'. Hopefully I was selected and become a teacher. Sound funny. I never had experience as a teacher even for a kindergarten but my friend says its okay because they will give training to selected one. What a relief! Hopefully I was one of the selected and chosen one. Amin.

Tuesday blues..

All the while we heard people talking about monday blues but not today. For sure today is Tuesday blues because yesterday is a public holiday so when it comes to tuesday people are hating it. Same goes with me here. Dont know everyday I felt very lazy with all the works/tasks at office. I think the main reason must be related to my pregnancies. Yeah every pregnant woman will get through this situation where they just wanna chill down, rest, relax, feel sleepy, lazy and just dont care about anything else. I know its not good but what can I do? Its not that it happen the whole months or years. Right? Agree with me? You have too.

Just now I called someone who want to rent a house and I proposed to him my rent house. Hopefully he will agree and accept the house so that I can move to Stapok and get back my 2 months deposit, RM600.00. Hopefully. Amin.

The cpu's problem still not settle. I have to call and ask Alex who open the boxes. I hate to do this. Guess I just e-mail him. Its so difficult to call Alex at offshore. Got so many number yet still to no avail. And right now I can feel the sleepy eyes of mine started working. My production level is very low for the past few months and next few months. Cant wait to get myself feel energetic and cant wait to be slim again.