Kaftan

Dari marek ati ku nak beli kaftan jak k pakey time bulan posa kelak. Sik dpt pakey time raya, pakey time bulan posa jak. Nak pergi carik ya lah lemah nyawa ku. Berjalan sikit jak dah tercungap2 kepak lemak kaki semput. Fuiyoo semua ada. Biasalah bila rasa nak beli ya kinek2 nak g carik walaupun tengah sengkek. Ala...window shopping lah dolok. Survei2 nak ni kacak agik nak ni murah agik. Pempuan mmg lah macam ya. Puas ati baruk beli. Ia adalah satu kenikmatan.Mmm.....

Mun ada driver sik hal lah juak. Kurang sikit rasa letih aku ya. Pa boleh buat taik kambing bulat. Aku nak carik kaftan yang sesuai time aku tgh sarat tok. P mesti ya kelak dpakey ari jemat jak. Sekhal lah. Dah ku kurus slim klak dpt dpakey gik bah. Mula2 ku pikir nak beli kain and hantar g tailor tapi bila ku calculate lebih kurang beli kat kedey jak harganya. Bagus beli kat kedey dapat pakey terus. Ye tak hehehe.

Aritok sekda kerja gilak. Just nak post timesheet cidak inspector n kad gi-d. Thats all for today. The rest, I can use it to surf. Lepas tok kelak sik dapat nak surf agik. Kemudahan dah kenak tarit. Buzy giler lah kelak. Sik hal lah janji ada kerja. Orang lain kemain susah nak dapat kerja. Gago jak nak demand nak owh (aku lah ya).

K lah ku nak sign off lok kelak jumpa gik.

Daaaaaaaaaaa.......................

Sedih....

Aritok banyak perkara sedih yang berlaku. Mula2 pagi tadik pasal gaji. Sik puas ati langsung. Rupa2nya kenak putar belit. Perkara sedih kedua yang aku dapat tahu, owner umah sewa lamak aku madah kenak tipu oleh penyewa sebelum aku. Nya madah nya sewa RM300 sebulan padahal cuma RM200 jak. Pasya siap minta 2bulan deposit gik. Sik berkat duit ya mun nya bena2 tipu aku. Sik tenteram nya ngenang duit ya dan akan sentiasa teringat dan rasa bersalah sehinggalah nya bayar balit semua duit aku ya. Banyak ya bah RM600. Perkara ketiga adalah kesian nangga Dhamirah. Aku ngan member pergi melawat nya kat hospital tadik. Waktu ya nya gik tido. Kesian nangga nya. Kembang kaki tangan. Waktu nak balit tadik pucat n sejuk kaki nya. Tangan ada panas sikit. Kesian tedah. Doktor madah nya batuk then kahak lekat kat tekak, lama2 turun ke paru2 lalu mengakibatkan jangkitan paru2. Sekarang tok tgh dlm proses membuang lendir dan jangkitan ya. Kesian Dhamirah. Umur baru 13bulan. Mudah2an Dhamirah cepat sembut. Amin. Perkara keempat adalah bila aku kol suruh orang semandin ngabas nya madah mun ada masa baruk g ngabas. Bah nya pa dpolah, pa kerja sampey sekda masa nak ngabas orang sakit. Mun orang lain cepat jak. Pasya madah nya dah kat umah. Awal juak nya balit tek. Coba stay kat tpt aku...dekat nak tgh malam..pagi baruk balit. Sakit ati ku lokk...Tapi apa boleh buat, tok lah dugaan yang aku harus tempuhi. Aku mesti kuat. Insya'allah.

Malam kelak sik tauk ada berita sedih agik kah sik. Harap2 sekda. Biarlah kali tok berita hepi jak yang ada. Insya'allah.

Monday blues again...

Aritok awal pagi dah start ngantok. Baruk jak melangkah kaki masuk opis dah start berolah mata tok. Lunch tadik pegi kat Chilli Peppers. Balit jak opis nang sik dpt ditahan2 gik mata tok tapi hati kuat nak surf digagah juak mata tok. Sempey rasa. Berenti lok rehat mata sekejap. Kelak jumpa gik. Daaaaaaaaa................

Lepas baca satu cerita dari blog (entah sapa mpun), terus aku rasa sedih gilak. Cerita ya seakan2 sama ngan jalan cerita kehidupan aku sekarang. Mengalir jak rasa air mata. Ku rasa mun aku tulis jalan hidup aku entah macamni ndak kah. Right now I'm speechless.

Durian....kek lapis....

Thari tadik nak g lunch nangga orang jual durian tepi jalan. Terus rasa kepingin nak makan durian. Balit dari lunch tadik beli, sekali bukak burok dan mantak. Huh rasa tertipu jak. Last2 aku pegi balit kat sia ngan kawan2 beli agik sigek durian harga rm15.00. Ya baruk dapat d makan. Lega sikit. Pasya bila balit opis rasa nak makan kek lapis indah. Aduhhhh.......sik tauk ya ngidam atau nafsu makan semata2. 

Kenak semua yang aku impikan, harapkan, angankan sik pernah berlaku. Apa yang aku maok semua sik dapat, yang ku sik maok dapat lah pulak. Rasa macam sekda kebahagiaan jak. Rasa macam segala keputusan yang di pilih sik betul jak. Now I dont even know which one is the best for me. Buntu. Like I was in the middle of many junctions, standing still and kept thinking which way to go. With no directions. With no guide. With no one to hold my hand...

Now I am all alone. I have to be strong for the sake of my children. Hopefully the path I choose will bring happiness and joy to me. I pray that God will help me to choose the best. Insya'allah.

Is It Me? - Stacie Orrico

Trying to analyze every angle, situation
Trying to find an explanation
Cause it's getting aggrivating
Why my relationships never seem to work out
Beginnin' to worry and doubt
If I'm even able to detect he's the one
When to stay or when to run
Why I haven't seen the sun
Shine his light on my heart and help me ease the pain
Cause I'm getting tired of the rain

Falling on my heartbreak and I
Get my hopes up when I'm in love
Until we break up then I'm back to the
Same spot, I've been lonely, drowning
Cause every guy turns out to be the same
So now I'm questionin' is it me to blame

[CHORUS:]
Is It Me? am I so complicated?
Is It Me? or is love over-rated?
Is It Me? cause I don't quite understand
Why it never turns out how I thought I planned it
Is It Me? am I too independent?
Is It Me? not ready for commitment?
Is It Me? cause it doesn't seem to last
And it's the only question that I never asked

Maybe I'm longin' for it more than I should be expecting
All the standards that I'm setting
Unrealistically I'm getting
Possibly in the way of what is left to have in store
Because I'm so confused and insecure
Cause when i know for certain everything is going wrong
I permitted to prolong
Tried my best to hold on
My Mister Right's probably hanging round my window pane
While I look through only watching the rain

Falling on my heartbreak and I
Get my hopes up when I'm in love
Until we break up then I'm back to the
Same spot, I've been lonely, drowning
Cause every guy turns out to be the same
So now I'm questionin' is it me to blame

[CHORUS]

Never thought it could be that its me
Till i realized I`m the only
Common factor and played a big part
In letting people break my heart
Never noticin' I was wasting time
Asking the same thing every time
Who were you with? and where were you at?
Until I took the time to turn and look back

Ooooh la la la
La la la la
La la la

[CHORUS x2]

La la la
La la la la la
La la la

There's Gotta be More to Life - Stacie Orrico

I've got it all, but I feel so deprived

I go up, I come down and I'm emptier inside

Tell me what is this thing that I feel like I'm missing

And why can't I let it go

[Chorus]

There's gotta be more to life...

Than chasing down every temporary high to satisfy me

Cause the more that I'm...

Tripping out thinking there must be more to life

Well it's life, but I'm sure... there's gotta be more

Than wanting more

I've got the time and I'm wasting it slowly

Here in this moment I'm half way out the door

Onto the next thing, I'm searching for something that's missing

[repeat chorus]

I'm wanting more

I'm always waiting on something other than this

Why am I feelin' like there's something I missed.....

[repeat chorus x2]

Bertemu lagi kita hari ini. Last post aku ada crita pasal dibah mata kanan ku tok ngerijik ajak2 nak. Haaa...nak tauk pa d temu aku? Aku xcdent...melanggar keta orang. Pempuan ya pun bongok juak..maka sekda moto melimpas pandey slow n berenti indah, alu d langgar aku pa ku pikir nya jalan tek bila ku nangga jalan clear. Dah lesen P. Terbang duit aku rm30.00 k ganti plat number nya berayan sigek ya. Huh sakit ati ku. Dah lah org byk ngerumun nolong cha ya nun alif sikok ya, aku tek backing ngan mak ku jak. Keta nya sekda pa2 cuma sigek no jak gugok dibah sedangkan bumper ku kemek n penyek. Nasib malam ya dah d ator Sedi just kaki headlamp ku jak perlu d tukar sbb dah patah. Lain kali lah. 

Blom abis juak ngerijik mata ku tok. Ku pikir dah ilang skali tek masih juak. Geram pun ada juak. Entah apa musibah yang mendatang. Minta simpang jak. Huh tengah naip tok pun sempat juak nya ngerijik.

Sik tauk kenak aritok aku rasa blues jak. Rasa macam sik best jak. Dah lah masok aritok dah 3hari dibah mata kanan ku tok ngerijik ajak. Petanda apa kah itu? Bagus atau tidak? Ya Allah, lindungilah aku dari segala musibah dan dugaan berat yang akan menggegarkan jiwa ku kepada mu. Hindarkanlah jauh-jauh. Amin.

10 foods men and woman should eat!

We meet again. Today I want to share with you the best food men and women should be eat. Lets share it with others.

10 foods all women should eat!! A varied, balanced diet is the cornerstone of healthy living for everyone, yet healthy eating can sometimes mean different things depending on your gender. While there are some foods we should all be eating more of, men and women also have their own set of dietary requirements as well as their own unique health concerns. Here are ten foods all women should eat. 1) Butternut squash Butternut squash — like many other yellow/orange fruit and vegetables — is packed with carotenoids such as alpha-carotene and beta-carotene. While carotenes should be included in everybody's diet for optimum health, they may prove essential to women's health as a high-carotenoid diet has been linked to lowered risks of both breast and ovarian cancer. 2) Salmon Salmon has a multitude of positive health benefits for women. Not only is it rich in iron — which is integral to the diets of premenopausal women — but it is packed with omega-3 fatty acids, known for their mood-enhancing effects. Studies have suggested that omega-3 can help beat depression (something that affects twice as many women as men) and prevent mood swings, while salmon can also boost babies' intelligence when eaten during pregnancy. 3) Flax Seeds Flax seeds are a good source of Omega-3 fatty acids and have been linked to reduced risk of breast cancer and heart disease. The seeds' anti-inflammatory properties are also good for preventing arthritis, while their digestive benefits can help irritable bowel syndrome; two painful conditions which are more prevalent in women than men. 4) Tomatoes Another vibrant carotenoid beneficial for women's health is lycopene, a pigment found in tomatoes. Studies have suggested that lycopene may be effective in preventing breast cancer. Furthermore, there has been considerable evidence to suggest that the powerful antioxidant can help reduce risk of heart disease — the leading cause of death in women in the US, Australia, England and Wales. 5) Cranberries Various studies have suggested strong links between consuming cranberries and reduced risks of breast cancer and heart disease. However, the most notorious benefit of cranberries is their ability to prevent and cure urinary tract infections such as cystitis, which is eight times more likely to occur in women than men. One study suggests that drinking two glasses of cranberry juice a day can prevent the symptoms of common UTIs in women. 6) Spinach Spinach is rich in many different vitamins and minerals, but one thing that makes it great for women is its high content of magnesium. Research has shown that magnesium may be beneficial in reducing many of the physical symptoms of PMS which plague women, including reduction of swelling, breast tenderness, bloating and weight gain. 7) Figs Figs are a great health food, containing many vital minerals and vitamins as well as contributing to your daily portions of fruit and veg. Two minerals found in figs that are particularly beneficial to women's health are iron, which is often deficient in menstruating women, and calcium, which is important for post-menopausal women, who are more prone to osteoporosis. 8) Milk Milk is a great source of calcium, which is extremely beneficial to women's health, particularly when combined with vitamin D (found in some varieties of milk and many fortified milk products). Consumption of the combined nutrients is not only good for warding off osteoporosis, but a study has suggested that a diet rich in calcium and vitamin D could ease, or even prevent, symptoms of PMS. 9) Oats Oats are literally packed with health-boosting nutrients, many of which have great impacts on female health. Oats are not only great for heart health, digestion and blood pressure levels (with hypertension affecting many women over 50), but they contain vitamin B6, which can help prevent PMS and mood swings, and folic acid, which is important for women to consume before and during pregnancy to prevent birth defects in babies. 10) Walnuts While all nuts are great for our health, walnuts have many great individual benefits for women. A study has recently found that walnuts, which are packed with omega-3 fatty acids, antioxidants and phytosterols, may help to reduce women's risk of developing breast cancer, while their high omega-3 content may also help bone health, arthritis pain and depression. Walnuts also contain many nutrients essential for female health, such as calcium, magnesium and folic acid.
10 foods all men should eat!! A varied, balanced diet is the cornerstone of healthy living for everyone, yet healthy eating can sometimes mean different things depending on your gender. While there are some foods we should all be eating more of, men and women also have their own set of dietary requirements as well as their own unique health concerns. Here are ten foods all men should eat. 1) Blueberries Blueberries are another fruit that have been linked to a reduced risk of prostate cancer, thanks to their high levels of proanthocyanidins. However, blueberries' positive benefits for men don't stop there, as studies have also suggested that blueberries may be effective in reducing risk of heart disease, Type 2 Diabetes and age-related memory loss; a condition more prevalent in men than women. 2)Whole grains Whole grains are great for our health thanks to their high levels of vitamins, minerals and fibre. Most whole grains, including brown rice and oats, are particularly rich in B vitamins, which are good for general wellbeing and can also help alleviate depression. Individual B vitamins can also benefit male health in various ways. Studies have suggested that folate (vitamin B9) can keep sperm healthy, while biotin (B7) may help hair loss. Silica, also present in whole grains, could also help with healthy hair growth. 3) Brazil nuts Snacking on nuts is great for heart health and good skin. However, Brazil nuts are particularly beneficial for men as they are packed with selenium; a powerful antioxidant which studies have suggested can boost sperm health and motility. Furthermore, selenium is also great for lowering "bad" cholesterol levels, preventing blood clots and lifting your mood. 4) Broccoli Broccoli - along with other cruciferous vegetables like cabbage and sprouts - contains a strong cancer-fighting chemical, sulphoraphane, which research has suggested may reduce men's risk of developing bladder cancer (a cancer more commonly affecting women than men), prostate cancer and colorectal cancer. 5) Oysters Oysters are the highest natural source of zinc; an essential requirement for men's fertility and sexual health. Zinc not only helps to maintain healthy testosterone levels in men, but it is essential for healthy sperm production. On top of this, zinc deficiency may be responsible for hair loss in men, so an increased intake may benefit men's appearance as well as health. 6) Tomatoes Tomatoes are possibly one of the best "superfoods" around, and the popular fruit has particular benefits for men. Studies have suggested that the lycopene found in tomatoes may reduce risk of colorectal cancer, lower cholesterol and reduce the risk of heart disease; the leading cause of death in men. Research has also shown that men who frequently eat foods rich in lycopene may drastically reduce their risk of developing prostate cancer. 7) Eggs For men suffering from hair loss, eggs may also provide the perfect solution. Eggs are an excellent source of protein, which is essential for hair growth, as well as being rich in biotin (vitamin B7). Egg yolks are also a good source of iron, which some studies have suggested can alleviate hair loss, which can be caused by anaemia. 8 ) Pomegranate juice Pomegranates are packed with antioxidants, vitamins and minerals, and research has suggested that drinking the juice of this "superfood" can help lower cholesterol - which can be high in many men as young as their 20s - and prevent hypertension. A study has also found that drinking just one 8oz glass of pomegranate juice a day could dramatically slow down the progress of prostate cancer. 9) Garlic Garlic is well known for boosting heart health, and a study on the effects of garlic consumption on males has shown that regularly eating garlic could help lower men's cholesterol levels. Furthermore, research findings published in the Journal of the National Cancer Institute have suggested that regularly eating garlic and onions could help lower men's risk of developing prostate cancer. 10) Salmon Salmon is not only a great source of protein, but it is an excellent source of omega-3 fatty acids, which can help address many of men's most common health complaints. Omega-3 fatty acids have been linked to lowered levels of "bad" cholesterol and can also reduce risk of many illnesses, including heart disease, colorectal cancer, prostate cancer and depression.   *info from Sirloin_skipper fotopages

Last night I did try to fry my own version of kerepek pisang. Well...it was okay except Sedi said it was too thin but I think it was well done..waisehh. Its hard for me to sliced it using fruit slicer because I dont have that special kerepek slicer. My mom even worse, she slice it too thick with kitchen knife. Guess I have to have that slicer. I will try and try again to cook my own version then no need for me to buy ready made product and sell it. By that time, I can cook, packing and selling my own product in large scale (Insya'allah...amin). Just that I dont know how to keep the crispiness in that spicy chips. People tend to says that if you dont know how to do it, the chips will lost its crispiness. Then I have to try and try until I solve the problems. 

At this moment, this is my goal to get an extra side income. I have to have the confident and get rid of embarrassment feeling. I have to plan how to market it in order to make people/customer/end user buy my products and will come back craving more for it. Dear God, please make it a success try out..amin.

Today is the first day I come to office after Gawai Holiday. Not much to do. I just transmit documents and the rest will continue tomorrow. Right now I'm thinking about business. What products to sell, how to make or prepare it, how to make people like and will come again for it and so on. I have to think and think and think and think again how to make it a success try out. At the same time, I need to figure out what kinds of product that is very easy to make with a low cost for Monica and Bujang to sell for their own pocket money. I did think of few but my sister already have plan to sell it so no point for me to suggest it to Monica because she's get paid by my sister to sell all the foods at Pasar Tani. Mmmm...any idea? A lots in my mind but cannot choose which one. 

I'm thinking of trying to do my own version of kerepek tonight. Figure out how they make it crispy. Why? Because at the moment I have to buy the kerepek from supplier and sell it at Pasar Tani. Of course I didn't get much that is why I have to try to fry it myself so that I can get 100% profit from it. I mean we have to start from small scale unless you are very rich to start in big scale and get the loss with no feeling or broken heart. Dont want to be in that situation. 

Aha......remembered Bujang want to sell salted terubok. Can also. I suggest he buy in small quantity first to test market. If okay, then proceed with the rest. 

Oh well, its almost 5.30pm. I want to go back already, after a hard work at office hehehe.

See you soon.